- Interview at Dress Barn @ 12pm
- Work 1-6pm
- Meeting 6-7pm
- Gym in Wilton mall with J @7:30 pm
- Calorie intake: 997
- Calories burned due to exercise: 606
- Remaining calories needed to lose the extra 30 pounds: 809
I ate too few calories today, and need to work more on that. But after not going to the gym consistently for a while and eating far too much of what I shouldn’t be eating, I’m still proud of myself.
J and I are doing well. We have our little bumps here and there (mainly about him leaving me, me leaving him because, due to past relationship experiences, we have issues that we clearly need to work on) but things are going well. I’m still not comfortable with the fact that he has so many girl friends (that he’s previously slept with, and still keeps in contact with) but I’m doing my best to trust him. But fuck, if we don’t have sex soon, I might just jump him. I may be insecure about my body and such, but honestly. It’s been 3
years months. So overdue.
I’m working on getting a second job, as evidenced by the interview I had today. I’m so awkward when it comes to interviews; I get so tongue-tied and I hate it. I don’t know how I did, and she said she had more candidates to interview, so I’m not holding my breath. It would be convenient, as it’s right down the hallway from where my current job is.
I also need to get my own place. I love my mom, but with her severely disliking my boyfriend, it’s making things very rough. She’s going out of town for a few days to be with my grandfather after surgery, and I can’t have him over while she’s not here. It’s crap, honestly, but I’m scared to have him over anyway. She’s already threatened to kick me out twice. I have no money, and nowhere else to go as it is right now. I’m 26 and she treats me like I’m a teenager. I need my own space before our relationship is completely shot.
I did a little research for my book tonight. J and I walked around Saratoga and while I’ve been there so many times that I cannot count them, it’s different when the details are important. I’m excited to write, but when I try to, I can’t. It’s frustrating.
That’s all for today. See you tomorrow!
@1 year ago
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